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You
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You
It's for you
Only you
It's for you
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I never know
I never care
I never believe my people
I'll tell you what I say
I never lie
I never try
I never cry for you people
I'll push you
Push you away
As you lonely people
Keep on running around my door
Yes, you lonely people
Keep on begging
Beg for more
And I'll cry for you
Yes I'll die for you
Pain in my heart it is real
And I'll tell you now how I feel inside
Feel in my heart it's for you
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It's for you
Only you
It's for you
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I'll never try
I'll never die
I'll never push for you people
I'll tell you how I feel
I'll never lie
I'll never cry
I'll never try for you people
I'll tell you, yes it's real
And you lonely people
Keep on passing time away
Yes you lonely people keep on passing,
Passing away
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And I'll cry for you
Yes, I'll die for you
Pain in my heart it is real
And I'll tell you now how I feel inside
Feel in my heart it's for you
And I'll take everything
As it comes my way
Pushin' your pain 'round my door
Will I cry for you as I die for you?
Is this blood on my hands all for you?
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You shiver
And shudder
Recovers your mother
You feel it take control
All alone
Feel alive
In your soul
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Come around town
Steal another dime
Take another line
Won't you feel it
Blanket your soul
Out of mind
Come around town
Steal another dime
Do another crime
Won't you get it higher & higher
Roll through time
Come around town
Steal another dime
Don't you push your drugs in my face
Yes, I'm feeling
Feeling fine
Don't you push your drugs in my face
Or I'm gonna put you in your place
Fuck you
I don't want it no more
And it's mine
Said this pain in my heart is all mine
Yes, it's mine all alone
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I don't want it no more
I don't want it no more
I don't want it no more
I don't want it no more
.
And it's mine on my own
Yes, it's mine all alone
As I cry for you
Yes, I'll die for you
Pain in my heart, it is real
And I'll take
Everything as it comes my way
Feel in my heart it's for you
And I'll lie for you as I die for you
Pain in my heart it is real
And I'll tell you now
How I feel inside
Fuck you
It's for you
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That was by Candlebox.
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Perfect for me right now.
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Music is helpful sometimes.
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So yeah. I am tired of bullshit. I do so much, and no one sees it. No one. No, not even you. Oh. And yeah. You. I took your virginity. And you know what? It was good. It felt good. The sex, the sweat, the gripping and rubbing and biting and bruises and everything. I take pleasure with my pain, thank you.
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"I feel intrusve."
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Can't wait to see you leave. I'll miss you guys. I will really miss all the bullshit I so thoroughly enjoy. And yes. I'll die for you. Not cry for you.
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There is a difference between trying to kill yourself and suddenly gaining a grasp on reality as you are doing it. There is quite a difference. I have realized it four times. But you didn't know that.
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I keep seeing lights out of the corner of my eye. And whispers. All day I hear whispers coming from my walls, from under my boots, from the clouds, from inside my mind. I am not crazy. Crazy people don't realize that these things aren't really there. I know that the lights don't really exist. I know that no one is whispering to me. No one is whispering my name. And the wind couldn't possibly carry my name that far.
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But I hear you. I know you are waiting for me. I will find you. Just give me a name...
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I am waiting for you too.
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I miss you.
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Yes.
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You.
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